The beauty of music..

Shockingly, I am finding great comfort in the quiet.  I am being transformed and can start to feel my spirit at peace and surprisingly others are starting to make comments too.

I have a few song verses that I strive to live out.  The first is from “Live Like That, by Sidewalk Prophets” the verse that gets me every time is: 

People pass
And even if they don't know my name
Is there evidence that I've been changed
When they see me, do they see You

This verse is really important to me.  I want to make sure that I am living a life that does not reflect selfishness, is not about me or about judgment.  I want to see the good in people again!  When a smile, my smile, can change a person’s day or journey, I want that.  Looking back, I had lost that true belief that people are good, and that in all things, there was good.  When I was letting my faith slip, I also lost sight of the good in people and things.  I became that person that always saw the “even better if” vs. letting good, be good enough.  When I became the “even better if” person, my smile dimmed, I became more selfish, and very judgmental of others.  In my defense, I thought I was helping to make things better, to push because pushing got better results, that even though it didn’t feel great, it would surely grow you.  In many ways this is true, and for many people they can do this and balance their faith and stay focused and positive.  I unfortunately, was not one of them.

It’s okay though, in these past few weeks, I am learning.  And through God’s grace my sins are forgiven.  I am humbled that I have an AWESOME GOD, who has been patient with me, and giving me family and friends that support and nudge me to help see the truth as well.  I am blessed to have this opportunity to STOP, REFLECT and LEARN.  And boy am I learning!!!  There are moments that I look back on and can tell you the exact moment where I swayed…I am saddened by this.  I compromised my great God, for great selfish successes.  However, I am so excited to have this time to be filled with scripture and truth.  To learn and be a shining light for someone else.

My other song verse is “Scandal of Grace, by Hillsong United”.  This song is amazing, but truly this verse is my intent.  I need this. Lately you will hear me humming this all day long- this is my ENERGY!  This is my comfort, this is my HOPE!

Oh to be like you

Give all I have just to know you

Jesus, there’s no one besides you

Forever the hope in my heart

Today’s verse that carries me is, Psalm 91:2 “I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust”